O QUE SERÁ, SERÁ

JUST TAKE IT EASY, MY LOVE. Whatever will be, will be.

honey, i´m starting to panic slowly...

i don´t wanna know for sure. i don´t wanna find out. it´s fucked up either way.

i hope i can make it through these last days. just to see your eyes and let you calm me. what if you can´t? what if i don´t let you? what if what if what if?

i´m a nervous wreck. one minute it´s heaven, the next it´s hell. but i feel like throwing up ALL the time anyway.

where did i gather all that strength before?!

Hey, since you've been in touch with our hosts for a while, share with me some of the things they've been telling you. Like places to go and details about their lives.

100% WOMAN.

or is that chauvinistic in your eyes?!

YOU

I can clearly see you before my eyes these days. I see the texture of your skin, the colour and everything. I can see your hair and your eyes. I can see your lips and it feels good to look at them. I see your naked body as well, and the look you have in your face when you catch me looking at it. And it also makes me feel good.

I want you so much.

PISSING RAZORS

It seems someone up there doesn’t want us to have sex at all and is taking all available precautions to make sure we won’t. First it was your period thing, something that can get in the way but is not strong enough to stop us. Now... well, now they got something a bit more complicated.

I told you about my kidney problems right? Well, it seems I am eliminating some crystal through my urinal channel and for about 3 or 4 weeks I’ve been feeling this terrible sensation of something hard and sharp moving down my penis, slowly (and painfully) making its way out. Bad enough, since yesterday I haven’t been able to even pee anymore without contorting myself in horrible excruciating PAIN. It seems whatever this shit is, it’s very close from just being expelled from my organism, but it could still take a few weeks. I went to the doctor this morning and he said there’s nothing we can do but wait.

So here I am. Just so you can have an idea how much it hurts, I can’t even touch my penis without having bright flashes of pure electric pain in my nerves. Actually, I don’t really have to touch or hold it, just walking makes it hurt quite a bit.

What kind of fun could I have down there? None.

CAVEMAN

Yes, my beard at the moment is huge, almost like in that picture I posted at Z. I just hope you like it, but gotta be honest with you: I will probably shave it off in the second day I'm in Barça, together with most of my hair.

How's your hair?

Hilarious I

some kid made calvin paces in our snowy backyard. just to think of how he/she figured where to turn to make it look like a pirate with one leg or like walking backwards on his/her hands lets me fall over laughing.

Hilarious!

Hilarious II

have you ever seen an inkblack cat shoved out into the bright white snow for the first time in life, and looking at this cold weird stuff under her sweet and sensitive paws with every indignation available?

Hilarious!

wtf?!

no comment, no consolation, no take it easy girl, nothing?! just plain business about the room search?! keeping it all to yourself at Z?!

right! so what is it this time.

not that i was begging for attention and you just ignored it...

so, have you nothing to say? i miss you...

my weekend was like always: working. wanna hear ´bout it?

here it´s still snowing. and it should be really nice to seize the free hours goin outside and enjoying the silence, but somehow the only thing it does is getting on my nerves. well, actually pretty about everything is getting on my nerves today. don´t know. i could just give it all away right now.

and there´s not even a reason for it. maybe i´m just freaking finally.

maybe i´m just coming down finally.

bah, sei lá.

hug me.

please?